******first let me say...WELCOME to my Art Site******

thank you for stopping by, taking the time to read this, and for looking at my art work, especially the Earth Series.
i guess the first thing you'll notice is that my pieces are a little odd...or maybe another way to put it is
"different". yes, i have done "normal" but right now, at this stage in my life i tend to do quirky.


some of the pieces may appear to be down right ugly to some people...but not to me. i love doing them, i love how they develop as i work on them, i love reading about each region...the history, the turmoil, the people, and the geography.


i would like to explain what these pieces are comprised of....most start off as NASA or aerial photos....into, not on, not under, INTO these images i "paint" portraits. i can not and do not change the geography.


the faces in some of the portraits appear to be scarred or bruised or cut....these areas ARE the rivers and lakes and roads and mountains of that region....sometimes the actually "scarring" that mines and man have made on our planet.


some questions you may have:

*what are these portraits exactly? the originals are high quality, limited edition, signed prints.
*are these pieces for sale? yes, contact me for available sizes, prices, and shipping costs.
*what sizes are available? i can make these images any size up to 36" X 48"
*can i order a "custom" piece of a specific region? yes, i love doing custom pieces.
*can you do MY portrait into the piece? yes, contact me for specifics.
*how long will a custom piece take to complete? i work VERY quickly, contact me for more info.
*do the prints come framed or unframed? i can do both, contact me for details.
*why do you do this kind of art? many reasons, i have an environmental science degree and a fine art degree.
i love science, this planet, and art. i try to combine those things
into these pieces.


***a personal apology and semi explanation i hope.


i have finally had a revelation i guess...ermmm or maybe i should say a "realization". i have come to realize
what is happening to me, what i allowed to happen, and how i need to change to snap out of this turmoil i have been going through.


to explain...i had a major emotional breakup about 4 months ago. this came just a short time after losing 5 very important people in my life.(my mother, my brother, my aunt, her partner, and a very dear friend) maybe one at a time i could have handled it...but one right after the other floored me. instead of having support at home i had little to none. the more i begged for it the less i got. i know seeing people sad and in pain is not pleasant, but it's part of life, of friendship, and of helping each other. over the last 4 months i could honestly say i "pined" for what i THOUGHT i lost.


but yesterday i realized IT was never there to begin with. the "motions" of caring were there but it was not real.
i thought about the previous partnerships this person had had and this was just a repeat of them...kind of like the movie "groundhog day" but with different female characters, and each time he blamed THEM. it was like as soon as i realized that...he no longer mattered to me. it was like my insecurities were lifted or something. i knew then that it was not something i did, but that it would have happened no matter what i did.


then today in the mail came some bloodtest results i had taken in may. without going into a lot of details all the results point to one thing...or i should say seem to be the result of one thing.


malnutrition


what?? i'm not anorexic! i'm not bulimic! i love food! i love to eat! but during the last 4-5 month i haven't.


i haven't been hungry at all, and at times i have had one kashi bar ALL day or one bowl of cereal ALL DAY.
when other people are around to eat WITH me.. i'm ok, although even then it seems like i'm not eating the amount i always had.


i looked up some of the blood test results....

and i saw that low protein intake causes that...and vitamin deficiencies cause this...and lack of green vegetables cause that.


it took me seeing in on paper to realize what was happening to me. not the depressed state i've been in, not the lack of sleep or the nightmares, not my inability to focus or to not want to communicate with people...or the fact that my jeans went from a size 10 to a size 4....it was the numbers on paper that did it.


i'm a science person! i should know what a brain needs to work and what a body needs to function!
if somebody was here i would ask them to slap me!


i have OVER 955 comments on my art here that i have failed to respond to. i have over 800 people favourited pieces that i have failed to say thank you to....

for that i am sorry. i truly am.


i hope i manage to snap out of this very soon and as soon as i get my next paycheck i'll go buy some protein and vegetables and i'll force myself to eat them and hopefully get my brain working again. another thing i noticed is that i haven't listened to my ipod in the past 4 months. music was always so important to me! that is bad! i need to get back to normal! soon!



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thanks to all of my friends and visitors that take the time to look at my work and to comment...and special huggerubies to those friends that wrote to try to make me feel better after i lost some of the people that meant the most to me s!


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